Depression don't want to die?

first off, when you get money, hide it away somewhere or invest it in the bank so you won't be tempted to spend it on drugs. do this immediately. second, make friends with some goody-goody kids (every town/school has them) and become close with them, but don't let on how ****** up you are to them until you're really close with them, bc then you'll be treated how they would treat any of their other goody-goody friends. This could help change you to be less inclined to do bad things, like them. As for addictions, you just have to suck it up and kick them. quit everything cold turkey and dont go back. start a new lifestyle and tell yourself how good you feel when you're not on drugs and eating healthy, etc.